Hey! When did you change your name?? I missed something...
Yep, those dreams are great and crappy. Great in the moment, crappy when you wake up and realize it wasn't reality...
Well I dodged a self-inflicted bullet last night. I was so down over the perfect storm of crap (broken washer/water heater/uncle/hearing date/snowstorm/etc) and I was feeling emotional--go figure!
I decided that I was going to drop the divorce petition entirely. F@ck it. If he wants to get a divorce, he can start the d@mn thing over and pay for his own attorney, serve me himself, be the one responsible for this...(Ok I swear more in my mind... )
But I didn't act on it, I just let it be. Then this morning I realized, that would: 1)Prolong the inevitable: if he is willing to sign off on the petition now, it means he does want the D, even if he stalled another year before filing himself, it would just be a slower death, same result
2)If I dropped it I would be out my attorney $$ for nothing, and have to come up with more to respond when Dan filed
3)Right now the petition is written as I want it. If I dropped it who knows what he would come up with? So this way works out best for me and the kids in terms of financial security.
4)I do not want to be with a man who doesn't want to be with me enough to make an effort to change. In fact, I don't want to be with a man who doesn't love HIMSELF enough to make an effort to change his life for the better.
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