C, Whether you have had enough of his behavior or not, you must thinking rationally and leave your heart and emotions at the door. You have to focus on what you need to survive. You have to be the one to protect yourself financially, no one else can do it for you.
As for promises that your darling h made......forget them! They are null and void while he's on the the Mother Ship.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
