Yes, you are right, Pearl, again. And I know that. I just have to get my head, heart, and stomach aligned.

I was thinking about town meeting,for example. It is still a big deal here in VT. In my town, we have the meeting on Monday night, and voting by ballot on Tuesday.


Anyhow, of course X and I have always gone. Sometimes I have had to speak about supporting the rescue squad. Sometimes he has had to present something for the Planning Committee.

So--do I go this year?

If I am only worrying about me, YES, of course. I can make some friends go with me and surround me.

I EVENTUALLY have to see them together. He will introduce her all around, etc.

The point of this is: when I can worry about ME and not THEM, it won't matter.

So the same applies to the house.


Me: 44
Him: 42
Together: 23 years; never married
Bomb: August 1, 2009
Affair since May 2009
Walk away; no conversation; no process