my H only moved out one week ago, so i guess i'm just still adjusting to being on my own for the first time in 5 years.
i know signing a lease doesn't close the door but it doesn't seem to do much to keep it open, either.
You shouldn't worry about having a pity party as long as it doesn't consume you. While my 11 years is longer than 5, even as a guy sort-of in the driver's seat, it is hard to avoid. Your worries about the lease seem normal and natural. Gnosis said something like 'responding' instead of 'reacting'. If you are responding and the emotions are in the way, it's a problem~
