Just scared of what comes next!

[kissak]

Thanks for understanding what I was saying Cyrena.....It sounds like our H's are similar in ways. I know my H wont remember some things when he finally is able to process the way his behaviour was and how it really affected me and our children. Our daughter was affected greatly by it and is finally recovering. She began pulling out her hair right before he left and then it got worse...finally the last 6 months she has almost stopped. I know even with that he doesnt know how hard it was for us because he werent here dealing with it.

and btw, I am very proud of my weightloss...of course I dont think I would have ever lost a pound if my H hadnt left so for that...well, that is the one thing I can actually say for sure was a good thing! lol...although the first 30 pounds came off in the first 30 days, not good but I have managed to keep it off and lose 45 more on my own will power!!! Looking forward to 10 more!