Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Thanks P. You're right, I'm in a good place now, but it is fragile. He knows that I have a soft heart and forgive too darn easy--he's mentioned it in the past. I won't take it as a fault though. I like that about myself. But, you're right... I keep forgetting how he is wanting to suck me in to hurt me.

I don't know if at this point I will shed some tears over packing up his stuff. I think I might start off being neat, but end up tossing it all in messily. Just want it over with. I need to get the house ready to sell anyway and I'm too busy with other stuff in my life--like doing well in school!

Thanks for worrying about me... yeah, I am doing great. I went for a run this morning with a different group of friends from my side of town. I began running with them the same month of the bomb. I stopped when I joined my marathon training program. I saw how much I've changed since then. Not only in my endurance in running, but it my emotional strength. Wonderful feeling. I keep saying I feel like me again... realized I don't need STBX to make me happy.

I'm happy to read how you are doing!! You're doing great.