That really is some story you got yourself there.....
If you have been reading for a while, then you know what path you have chosen for yourself.
MLC is an ugly animal, with several heads that each speak a different language.
There will be times when it is less of a monster than the ones in YOUR head though.
Forgiveness is something that you have to do for you....
Apologizing to him now ? That would be like trying to stop a locomotive with a fish net.....not a productive way to spend your time.....
If YOU choose to write a letter to him, then I would do that for you, and no one else. Seal it up, and save it for when the time arises to do so.
You sound good, fairly balanced right now....
It is good that you recognize that you had/have faults, we all do.
It is how we CHOOSE to deal with those faults that make a difference in how we live.
Very similar to the MLCer....WE just get to do that WITHOUT all the confusion and damage that they tend to have.
Don't pay a lot of attention to the spew that he passes on to you right now.....
Although you will and should find some validity in his complaints, and if YOU think those are things you need to change about yourself, then you should certainly act on those things.....
Just make sure they are for you, and NOT to win him back.
You will find as you move through this, that you will actually become thankful to him for doing this. For taking a stand against the old stagnate relationship, that honestly.......wasn't THAT great......
Take this time for you, and find what you really want out of your life......
IF you can do this, and really grow and learn....
Then this will really become a blessing for you....
