Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Something's clicked... STBX sent me a TM saying he paid the mortgage for this month. Hmm. I am taking this as him following the advice from his new L. Nothing more. And you know what, it's giving me relief. Feeling like things are getting in control and are on the way to getting it all over with. He has a "handler" now and will have to follow some rules. I am wondering whether to respond with a thanks or to even bother. In all of this I've been trying to be the better person, to end it all proud of how I handled it when I look back. I haven't been vindictive, I have kept my vows, kept the door open and I still pray for him. Doing it for ME.

I've decided before I pack up any of my stuff in the house, I'm first going to pack up all his stuff he left behind and put it in the garage for him to pick up or I'll donate it. He pretty much left everything. I should have packed it all up long ago. It's been kind of like a death and I left things as he did. Done... I'm over it. Feels wonderful to be free of hanging on. A weight has been lifted.