Thanks guys! Guess I'm needing a little encouragement and to keep my attutude in the right place. I often wake up mornings here in my cozy bed w/ my little set-up home office (even though that was our apt previously, it feels like mine now and i've been quite comfy here). I like being on my own too sometimes - more anonymous in some ways than home/SF w mom/fam friends all in my business (will do the boundardies).
Letting go can be hard sometimes. I remember when I first moved in w H and left all my friends in NYC and I was SO missing them and my old life there...but I think I've become more adept at change as I've gotten older. When I run I often repeat in my head: 'can't embrace the new unless you let go of old' over and over. pave the way for what's to come.
Read the Tough Love book. Seeing H for lunch tomorrow. Trying to project my best self and be strong as much as possible - wish me luck. The L session was great help yesterday..was reading back over old posts and Pearl/25 you said just do a consult and then you can decide what best path to take, and I feel more confident about that now. Likely not bring anything up tomorrow but if he does -talking paperwork/splitting stuff- I will calmly mention what he had agreed to last spring in terms of tuituin reimb. I hope we can keep this civil. If not, I have L either way. At this stage, best to just agree w H on D (while also projecting my best self as much as possible), don't you think? Last time I resisted it did not yeild results.
I really liked what you said awhile back Pearl (I still can't figure out how to do the captions! duh..) "just project great thoughts about your new life and that it is going to be fabulous" Thanks for the boost - I really need to believe this wholeheartedly as face this. and yes, there are some cuties in sf;) I still need to keep letting go of h as be-all-end-all...for months I think there are so many fish in the sea and then I have these tender moments of what we once had..
