City Girl is communicating in a very clear way and I can see that it clicks with you. That is always a great thing to see when it happens. B/c until the LBS really understand clearly what he/she needs to do, then it is mostly all in vain.
When a person steps back and really takes a look and evaluates their own life.....well, all kinds of emotions could be experienced, but I hope you will determine to start fresh and regain your own "person" (so to speak). I am very interested in your stitch and want to see a happy ending to this story. I believe you have the inner strength to rise to what you need to do in this R.
****************************** ((Hugs to your little girls)). It will probably be an emotional weekend. I'll be thinking about you.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!