Hi 25yearsmlc.

I guess my question for you is, how did you react/act towards H when he started coming around more frequently. I mean, I learned alot about detachment from you and sandi. More than I realize.

But I've gotten detached to the point where I have a chance to spend a couple of days together with her and I don't know how to act.

Funny isn't it? I mean I know I want the M to work out. That's a given. So now here's my chance. I've done the looking good, smelling good, etc. part. And I have put my best foot forward in every way I know how when I have been around her. But now here we are going to be together longer than we have in awhile.

Should I flirt? Should I stay distant. Geez this is tough.

I definitely want to move on from how things were. I'm not sure if she's still distant sometimes because she still works with her boss. Incidentally, when all this happened, she said he admitted having feelings for her too, so they've made out on two occasions. While I'm pretty sure that's all over, she still has daily contact with him.

I just want to try something different, but I don't even know what that is. I mean, a part of me is saying to take it up a notch and flirt more with her, then another part is saying to hold off because that's pursuing. Odd how these things were so natural to me with her and now it's become the hardest thing because I feel since the A, I don't know her anymore.


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Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

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