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[Lucky11too]

I think that is a completely normal feeling. It has definitely passed thru my head (especially recently) when I wonder why I put up with this. But the one thing I keep reminding myself is of my wedding vows - I promised to be there for him thru the good and the bad. It's easy to rationalize that they did not keep their wedding vows so why should we keep ours, but it's not our job to keep score or punish them. God is the ultimate judge, not us. At some point this will end one way or another, but we just have to keep giving it our all until that point. I know you don't want to get hurt and this unknown path you're taking right now is scary. Just keep giving him the benefit of the doubt until he proves otherwise. It's hard to hold in your feelings, but there will be a point where you will be able to share more openingly. Just keep giving him all the love and encouragement you can and just help him keep moving in the right direction. You have just been doing so awesome with this, so just keep it up. I hope you have a really great weekend at the youth camp and with your family! If the opportunity comes up, let H know you're thinking about him and miss him, but don't overthink all the negative things he could be doing. Stay positive!