W continues to think about a trial separation. Not talking to me about it (I saw it in an e-mail to an old friend that she is planning to visit this weekend).

She asked her online Tarot site "Should I move out, or try harder?" So I know that is the question in her mind right now.

This evening we did cooperate well on cleaning up the living room, which tends to get inundated with S4's toys and art supplies. I feel like we need so many more positive interactions like that, but I don't know how to get them to happen.

Sunday we have a babysitter coming, and we're going out to dinner. I don't want to push the R talk - just have a positive experience, work on rebuilding our sense of connection just a tiny bit. But I'm nervous about it - what if the conversation fails utterly? What if her visit with her friend L. and family this weekend has caused her thoughts to swing to the D side?

Next week I go back to the orthopedist who operated on my ankle, and I expect him to give me the O.K. to start walking on it. Also next week I start a drawing class (part of my GAL effort).

Just spilling my thoughts here, and grasping for encouragement...


Me:45 W:42
T:11 M:9 S:4
ILYBINILWY:12/6/09
W agrees to MC: 2/12/10
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