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[awest1217]

S is dong much better and tonight's dinner was good. I really enjoyed listening to H talk about his classroom. He is a really awesome teacher. I am just feeling kind of weird and I don't know if it is just part of the cycle or not. I am kind of feeling like who might I be missing? I mean I am waiting on H and he is being good. He is texting and reassuring me a lot, but I just don't know. I am pretty sure this is just my defenses going up because I don't want to get hurt again, especially when I was finally ok being without him, and now we are hitting the anniversaries of the bad. I am not showing the fear to H, or at least I don't this so, but it is still there, and I am not sure how to say anything to H without him getting dragged down and giving up. UGH!