I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Hey Pearl,
I hear ya on the Ruse. That's my dilema at this point. I NEED to decide that I'm comfortable doing. Am I REALLY ready to file myself - would I be doing it for the right reasons. THATS the question I'm ruminating on. I need to make sure I don't make a decision I will regret later - for myself and my values.

I'm calling L tonight to firm up meeting for this weekend. Time to hammer down my options and make the best choice for me.

I really am not worried about how this decision affects H - I don't care anymore.