Luv, I think it's time for you to make a goal for yourself.
think about it for a while, and make a decision on what you want for yourself, and what steps you can take to get you there.
I'm glad you are feeling some peace, it could be a sign of detachment, and letting go, and that is good.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."