Thanks, newmama. I am an "old soul;" which isn't an expression used much anymore. It gives me a serious lack of patience and understanding with people of my own age, though.

I won't call him; on that point I am quite solid. A phone is a two-directional device, and if he wants to hear how we're doing he can dial. I hope he misses me. I guess I wonder if he is sitting there thinking, "Well that's a relief. Now I can leave and not worry about her anymore."

I am going to have mom open it. I was more worried about it upsetting her, really. I've been mentally preparing myself for being served since the day he said he wants a D. And as I say, it's highly unlikely. Just one of those days...

LOL. There are a great many of those deep reasons that traditional therapists would wish to explore about why I became an anal retentive crazy. Not least of those was the lack of control I had while I was ill. But the why isn't really a big deal to me anymore...just the how. How I go about being more relaxed. How I show him that I am still fun and happy and stable but not rigid.

How are you enjoying mommy-hood? It's tough doing it alone. I hope you have a great support system in place to help you cope until your WAH comes to his senses. And good for you in telling him to move out. There are days I wish I had the guts. Want me to kick him for you? LOL.

OH! And why could my mom have just not said that? She could just have kept it to herself until she got home and could ask me whether to open it or not. Instead she is at work so I have to agonize over the stupid envelope of mystery for hours. eek I gotta go clean something...

undefeated 24
H 24
S's 4, 2, 1
M 5 yrs

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." ~Dale Carnegie