W cornered me about R....said she can't keep living like this (both of us in the same house is what i was gathering)...told her that is her choice. continued to remind me that she has no feelings for me and can't change that.
i stood by my "i know and can't change the past" but she kept persuing me about how she isn't happy and this is no way to live.
"so i am suposed to just keep living with some man in the house" - the "some man" being me - that one hurt....bad.
she left to take our S11 out to a friends - i thought i was alone and broke down....i heard something....my S8 was standing there crying....it crushed me - i have never felt pain like watching him.
he told me how he doesn't want me or mom to leave....i told him neither do i.
i don't want to give up, but i can't do this anymore, i can't sit and watch my children get upset because they "don't care" what mom thinks and "she is wrong"...
i have no one to turn to, don't think i can keep taking the punishment
i feel defeated
i don't want to give up
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
