My Story

[Wired]

Not a good day today.
Stayed home from work as was just to beat down from work and all that has been going on.
Woke up early and wanted to talk to my kids and explain to them a bit of why things where turning out this way.
Unfortunately I let my emotions take over and made myself out to be the bad guy...again. But I did get somethings out that I think needed to be said.
Much hurt as I think my daughters are now lost to me. I think my son still has a bit of faith/hope that Dad can turn things around.(Not in the marriage, but in his and mine relationship)
After the talk with the kids, W and I sitting at table talking about things, phone rings and without a word she walks out of the room, comes back and sits down and starts talking to her sister(sob we where in mid sentence.)

Here is where I really mess up, I get up to walk out and take a drive so the anger would not show, grabbed my shoes from bedroom and by time I reached kitchen(where she was sitting down)I had cooled down enough to realize storming out was not the answer so I put my shoes down, a little too harshly and she picked up on it in a heartbeat... well [censored], one step forward, 2 steps back.

18 years = 18 months right? pheww its gonna be a long ride