Thanks DDay for dropping by. I haven't heard from you in a long time. I will try to pretend he is dead. That's why I went completely dark now. But I'm not going to lie, when I hear our D13 on the phone with him my heart aches.
May, thanks for dropping in, I see you are just at the beginning and you are so right. Ok, will try really hard to forget about him for now and work on myself.
I'm just afraid as time goes on and the longer the separation maybe he will come and find someone else or just forget about me and the kids forever and not want to return. I'm not looking for anyone either. All I ever wanted since I was a child was a healthy M. I was M once before and it was a horrible experience towards the end. H got hooked on drugs, was physical and emotional abusive. I got over that one real quick, but I was also a lot younger and was only dealing with one child.
My first H treated me terrible whereas this one treated me like a queen most of the time. When his depression would set in he would be ok, but not himself and this time when he stopped taking meds he went off the deep end it seems.
I just wish I could get over this H the way I did with the first.
