Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I'm a little at a loss today. W has texted me with little made up reasons to contact me, she proposed our "date" from last weekend even after I turned her down twice. She told me recently that she k ows that I deserve better. She was at her GF's house the other day and left because she knew I would be uncomfortable going there to pick up S8. She told me that I am a great Guy and she doesn't know what is wrong with her. She also told me that she wants to save our family, but just isn't ready for some things yet.

With that all said, she continues to say things like "I just don't feel about you like i should. " I don't feel like I "should" after all of this either. I don't pursue. I don't talk R at all. She still knows that she could one back at any time she wanted to though. I don't think she's really experienced loss yet.

There have been positive steps, so I'm not sure if I should give an "in or out" demand, but I sure don't want to go on like this anymore. I don't think she does either. I honestly think that she saw the grass is brown on that side on the fence now, but after all that has happened doesn't feel a spark with me anymore either.

What to do...what to do...