how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, talia. if i get any better at faking, i might have to become an actress!

i just don't know what to make of emails like that, where my H says he wishes he knew what to say or do to make things better. it makes me feel like he STILL has no hope for us, despite expressing that separation may not have been the best answer. i know i need to stop worrying and thinking so much about him and focus on myself. tonight's goal is 3 miles on the treadmill, some meditative yoga at home, and a quiet dinner and a movie (now that i have no tv, i have to watch dvds on my relatively small laptop - tonight's selection is the black and white classic "in cold blood" - read the book and loved it and i am a SUCKER for old movies).

less of HIM, more of ME.