Back here, for the second time... #69

[sandycay]

That letter made me cry mish. For a man as I have described him, that doesnt talk about his feelings, saying he feels that life is slipping away from him, that he is useless and an a$$hole for not being able to offer me what I need, saying that he loves me, did affect me.


I pulled this qoute out. This is exactly what my STBXH felt. He coulddn't restore himself... in the end. I couldn't do it for him and you can't do it for him. For as long as he needs you or some Ow to make him "complete" .... he is broken.

That's what everyone who talks to STBXH says about him. He always talks so well of me, to others. They don't get it. If he thinks so well of me why isn't he trying to be here. Well, he did for 18 months but what he said in the end was " I just can't give you what you need and I don't understand. I try, and I try and I just can't."

It's very sad. I am sorry you are still getting hurt by all of this. I didn't realize how paralyzed I was until about a week after he left (2nd time) but all the emotions that were weighing me down.

Big Hugs to YOu!