Not Me Ever...part 3

[Gardener]

O'D

I think the one thing bothering me (bad enough to not want to put words to it) is that the more time goes forward the more I feel less for my H...I am scared of reaching a place where it would no longer matter if he came back or not and that if he did, I wouldn't want him back anymore. frown

Dog thinks you must reach this point before you can decide enter or re-enter a relationship. Sadness, anger, and feelings will discolor perception. One must approach the relationship with an empty heart (or blank page) ready to start fresh. (others are free to disagree).

100% Dead-On, Dog! I would, however, add:

Dog thinks you must reach this point before you can decide enter or re-enter or walk away from a relationship.

[Gardener]

Serenity,

My oldest S sent this to me -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gZMCkufE0X0

There are no words.

Beautiful. Poignant. Telling. You're right. There are no words.

One can only hope he sends it to his father as well.

You are tough-loving that boy into manhood, strong Mama.
(((Serenity)))

[Gardener]

Serenity,

I keep reminding myself that I have to protect the little one as well as myself...
And I NEVER want to be afraid in my own home again because my S decided he wanted to turn punk a$$ on me.

Damn straight!

[Serenity13]

I still can't watch it without getting teary - My S shouldn't have to feel like this - He is there with his Dad and yet miles away...

He told me last night he is still seeing "the monster" as we used to call H based on his moods...

If I sit and think about the possibility of my child being ignored, not eating healthy food, staying up to late, not doing good in school etc...

Then I want to jump in the car and go get him...

However I can't and quite frankly that sucks more then anything.

[Serenity13]

And that is why I can't give in my friend no matter how much it pains me. (((Hugs)))

[Serenity13]

Thinking of framing this and wrapping it up for my H - I would love to hire him to sing this directly to hubby - Form of pursuing? (That was a joke - I know the answer)


Stupid Boy - Keith Urban

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone

Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me

[Gardener]

Serenity,
Good, apt song.
But I advise against sending it.

[Serenity13]

(((Gardener)))

I need a smile face that sticks it's tongue out at you.

[Gardener]

(((Gardener)))

I need a smile face that sticks it's tongue out at you.

Although it's still early (10:25a.m.), I'm giving you today's Belly-Laugh Of The Day Award for that one!

Off to IC. Talk later.

[Serenity13]

(((Gardener))))

9:35am here and I will take that award

Have a good session!