Exactly, S.T. We don't wind up in Depression because our bodies or brains are deficient in Zoloft, Prozac, Lexapro, or any other synthetic pharmaceutical that do not occur naturally in the human body. We are deficient in certain brain (i.e., neurotransmitter) "food".
Gardener, now I know why your name is Gardener! lol I love to meet people who believe in food like I do.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
wow, just read the last few pages, talking about penis costumes, and viagra for eyeballs...you guys are all CRAZY!!! lol
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
And, guess who is starting to feel sick?!?!?! UGH!
So, last night I made a Mexican dinner... (For you foodies out there) I made steak tacos, w/the steak marinated in lime juice, cumin, chili powder, loads of garlic, and olive oil. I made pico de gallo w/tomatoes, red onions, jalapenos, cumin, salt and pepper, then added in avacado marinated in lime juice. YUMYUMYUM We also had Mexican rice and blue corn chips. Superb!
The family enjoyed it.
I spoke w/Cutter and G last night in the alt. I'm struggling w/how to act around H right now. Am I dark, am I dim, am I engaging, am I a person any fool would ignore/leave? Really struggling w/that.
You've all been very supportive, and have given me great feedback. This weekend, showing some sadness, without it looking like it is consuming my life, made me feel better.
I need to find the courage this weekend to, actually, speak. Even if just a little bit.
Otherwise, I feel like I'll only get worse, and start to fall apart (even more).
I'm going to the Naturopath this afternoon, and will ask about anxiety solutions. My H went last night, and he is pretty much down to only finishing the supplements that he has left. His yeast issues are completely gone, and, physically, he is feeling superb. I'm down 10-12 pounds, and really would like to lose about 15 more. It would be so much easier if it was nice out! Soon, though! (Wait, the darned groundhog says six more weeks!)
I have a ton of work to do today. I like that.
Last edited by mindfull; 02/04/1003:43 PM.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Mindfull, I think it's interesting that when you felt sad and showed it, H kind of tried to cheer you up. That shows me he was concerned sort of that you were sad. Do you think he could be in a space of mind to not want to lose you? Just asking...
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004
Just a thought. Isn't feeling sad, depressed, associated with withdrawing, not speaking out while in that state. Is it not related to DB in that manner. As in pulling back, not pursuing. It did give the same effect to some point, even though it was just feelings at the time, not planned.
Whoa, MF, I think Can'tgive up is right! And it is also "doing something different on your part" right? withdrawing? I need to get caught up on your DBing efforts!
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004
You know, you're on to something! For the past year I've had this painted on, cheerleader, BS smile thing going on... I guess I was doing something different.
Just back from the Naturopath. My blood analysis was a TON better than the initial visit. The recent weight loss is due to the detox and supplements working to get my body digesting proteins and fats again. Takes 2-3 weeks to affect... And, that's right when it started to come off. And, thanks to my faithful friends here, I'll be taking St. John's Wort, and something else (have to look at my notes) for stress. Amazingly, though, my blood didn't show a very high stress level. I told her... "You had better re-do that test! You have H as a patient! You can't be blind!" She laughed... (I wasn't kidding!)
Anyways, so, H called to see how my appointment went, wanted the details, and told me how well I'd done w/the program. He'll be home tomorrow night... told me, "I'll call you later, when you get the boys to sleep..." (In focusing on not giving him SO much attention, maybe I'll be asleep, too!)
Taking a son to a soccer game! I think I'll hang w/the Dad's tonight and have a beer! They like the female company, and I never have to pay! (One of them improved, and went to school this afternoon... Yea! The other one has strep throat!)
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Whoo-Hoo....Glad you are getting better my friend! Also happy to hear you were able to get some advice on anxiety since my fall back won't work for you.
Soccer and a beer or two - Sounds like a plan.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
I love to meet people who believe in food like I do.