I took S13 out for some food tonight(D17 stayed home with way too much homework) He's been unusually tense for the past couple of days. I've been gently probing, seeing if he wanted to talk. Of course he gets mad if I ask "what's wrong", so I've been avoiding that.
Tonight, he finally opened up to me. We talked for over an hour, with us both trying to hold back tears the entire time. Me trying to be the good dad, and him trying to be the good son. He's been acting like everything was ok, and that he was handling everything, but I knew he was having a really hard time. He told me so many things, and I could tell he was really telling me the truth, not the equivocation that teenagers often provide. I'm so thankful for him!
Much of it was hard to hear. He's very depressed, and has a hard time coming home. He has a hard time sleeping. He says he has lost all hope. He said that he is so tired of his friends telling him that everything would be ok, and to remain positive. Then he said something I've read here in the forums: "I have to remain positive, because I have no choice."
I talked to him about maybe seeing someone to talk to outside his family and friends (IC). He was dead set against it. But, as it often is with teenagers, I'll wait and see how he feels in a few days after he's thought about it so more. At least I've had the chance to plant that seed.
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