OK, I did some deep breathing, then went to my neighbour's house briefly and she gave me a small glass of cider . That helped with the anxiety that I was feeling. H initiated a conversation about education after the kids went to bed, and asked me if I had time to tell him about the various options available. He is OK with homeschooling this fall . Relief. We sat down and I told him about the options. We discussed them and he agreed with my assessment. He apologized for not being involved in doing the research, etc. on the diagnosis/education stuff. I told him that I'm happy to do it as long as he feels OK with my taking the lead role on it (and we make the decisions together). It was a really positive conversation. He ended by telling me an amusing anecdote about playing with the D3 and her little friends this morning. He voluntarily shared something! A babystep!
My DB coach was right. I have to stop letting paranoid thoughts about H's divorce strategy poison our interactions. Maybe I should drink more cider .
Does putting my new IKEA bed together tonight count as GAL?
One GAL thing that I'm doing might sound a bit wierd, but it's somehow helpful to me. I'm using the timer on my camera to take photos of myself having fun with the kids. I usually don't include myself in the photo, but I want to see the images of myself in beautiful places enjoying simple moments with my beautiful children. Some of these photos end up on my blog (mostly for extended family to anecdotally document homeschooling stuff), and it's nice to get positive feedback from my mother who is happy to see how we are spending our days (she lives 1000s of km away). H rarely took photos of me, and now if I want it done, I'm really going to have to do it myself.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
. That helped with the anxiety that I was feeling. H initiated a conversation about education after the kids went to bed, and asked me if I had time to tell him about the various options available. He is OK with homeschooling this fall 
. Relief. We sat down and I told him about the options. We discussed them and he agreed with my assessment. He apologized for not being involved in doing the research, etc. on the diagnosis/education stuff. I told him that I'm happy to do it as long as he feels OK with my taking the lead role on it (and we make the decisions together). It was a really positive conversation. He ended by telling me an amusing anecdote about playing with the D3 and her little friends this morning. He voluntarily shared something! A babystep!
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