Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

I think the dream came from D10 telling me W is working out again. I'm glad for her and jealous at the same time. As she got more and more depressed, she gained more and more weight and tried fad diets or expensive equipment.

She always seemed jealous that I've always been able to keep the weight off. Part of it is just who I am. I've played basketball my entire life. A couple of weeks ago I actually was back down to my high school graduation weight. My life will really change when I can't play anymore.

So I think W working out must have been in my head when I went to bed. She's a beautiful girl no matter what but was just gorgeous in 2006.

Good night with the girls. I had to take them to a neighbor's apartment for an hour for a work function. I'm trying to stay in line for a promotion so I had to play the corporate game today.

D7 mentioned on a couple of occasions that W doesn't have any money. W called tonight to tell me all of the tax stuff was in. Luckily I got a call from work so I could jump off the call with her.

I've always done the taxes and will again -- for the final time. I just want to do them on my terms and my time. I know she needs the money, but I'll make her call a few more times since she hasn't been answering my emails.

When I get down I've been having success thinking that the settlement should get me out of a ton of the debt she ran up. By this time next year I should be doing a lot better.