Fast track to her divorcing me

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I have to vent and journal for a bit.
It's now 8days until D-Day.

Went over to stay at her place at her request to house-sit.
Electrician never showed. Also got letter that said our final D-Hearing is on 11Feb2010. Called W to let her know.

She came home late as usual and wanted to go out to eat so we went out for Mex food. Since both her B-day, Valentines day and our D-day was coming up within days, I asked her how we were going to handle b-days, anniversaries and holidays etc after D. She said "we won't!" I asked if that meant all of them and she said yes. Guess that answeres my question.

She compared my brothers divorce to us. They were only married for a few years. We were married for 22+. I know full well that she sends b-day cards and valentines etc to friends she has not even known for two years yet. She keeps b-day lists for everybody. Yet somehow she feels she needs to erase the history of her husband of 23 years as if I and our family never existed. This was very painfull for me to
hear. You would think that 23 years would at least count for a
memory or some kind of consideration. She could tell I was upset by this even though I tried to hide it.

She dropped me off at my truck and she asked me if I was still coming out tomorrow to house-sit for her garage door installation while she was at work. Stupid question as she did not have anyone else to this for her. I said "of course, who else is going to do it?". She made the comment that it was for my Son since it was his house. Yeah, whatever!

At least now we will be even and I wont owe her a favor.

We were getting along really well but sometimes little crap like this really hurts and bothers me. Guess Im not as detached as I thought I was. And maybe Im making a mountain out of a mowhill but damn it still hurt to hear that. I feel like half my life is being erased and was all for nothing. I know I have a Son that loves me and I know better but damn that cut deep to hear from her.

We were supposed to have a movie and pizza night tomorrow but Im not sure I want to do this now. What is the point? I wanted to work on having a friendship with her but her real friends get b-day cards and other considerations. So what the hell kind of friend would I be? Because we were together for 23years and now divorced I do not rate any kind of affection or consideration?

Guess I should have went with my first instinct and stayed dark. Any ideas guys? Go grey or continue building a frienship? Just not sure which one would be best towards R at this point.

Sorry for whining. I tend to forget that her comments may just be WAW script. Rant over.