how do i keep my hope alive?

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thanks, h! i was just thinking a nice massage might help me relax and forget my troubles for a while. i do have a formal event for work that i'll be attending at the end of this month, so i'm looking forward to indulging in a fabulous new dress for that, plus revisiting my yoga practice and just spending a little more time with ME in the coming weeks.

i like the idea of being my own internal mother. god knows my external mother is making me nuts. she called today and said "your sister told me your H took the tv. EVIL." i said, MOM. i TOLD him to take the tv. she goes, well, you can't live forever without a tv. i said, how do you explain life before the 1930's then?? her response? WHATEVER. she is ENTIRELY too involved in my situation and it's not only unhealthy for me, it's unhealthy for her, too. if anyone needs to focus more on their own happiness, it's her. i think she is taking this all as something that my H is doing to HER since regardless of what happens with him and i, it means at least 4 or 5 more years until she gets those grandchildren she has been dreaming about since i got my period!

you will be fine living in the same zip code as your mother, as long as you apply your DB boundaries to your relationship with her. i've never set boundaries with my mom and it's been an interesting process so far. she does not like it ONE BIT. too bad for her! THIS IS THE NEW ME!