Well, I think I blew it.

The counsellor asked us from our last meeting to write what we want to see in the separation agreement.

She wrote:

We are living apart since ---.
- She will maintain me on her medical.
- She will return the engagement ring if asked.
- I am to give her $x from an investment account.
- We agree we are open to reconciliation.

I wrote:

A 4 page document based on the following template.
http://jryankennedy.com/uploads/Handout-Healing_Separation_Agreements.pdf

For the financial aspect, I referred to a legal separation document that we had previously agreed to.

My therapist told me I blew it. I should not have used a template. I should have spoken from my heart.

I then decided to really make a stupid move. I text her tonight (first one since separation 2 months ago) "would you be alright for a quick call"... she responded back 40 mins. later with "anything in particular?". It has now been 80 mins. and I have not responded.

Bottom line, when left to my own devices... I screw up. I feel so clueless.

I feel that is ridiculous that I am walking on eggshells. I constantly question, if I screw the next thing up, is that the last straw?

I just moved lock stock and barrel into backsliding city.

Any thoughts?