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I am noticing that X is starting to show flickers of maturity. It does not seem to be translating into interest in me, although I have cut contact with him, so it is not as if I have had the opportunity to interact with him much, at all.

Because my contact with him is cut to as minimal as possible, I can't really explain what it is that I see, but there is some progress. He seems more interested in D, more involved, more considerate of her feelings and well-being. He seems upset that I do not want to have contact with him.

And...he sounds more like "old" H. I can't really explain, as I said. It is a tone. Something in his voice and his eyes has started to change. I noticed that there is still adolescent entitlement in some of his ways, but it's less pronounced. I say this having just run into a stompity-stomp adolescent mini-tantrum earlier this week, but it was shorter and less furious than it used to be.

This doesn't change my course. The problem is that XH is more attractive now because the adolescent side of him is less pronounced. So, staying as dark as possible still seems like the best thing to do, so that I can focus on my own life.