I think the one thing bothering me (bad enough to not want to put words to it) is that the more time goes forward the more I feel less for my H...I am scared of reaching a place where it would no longer matter if he came back or not and that if he did, I wouldn't want him back anymore. frown
Dog thinks you must reach this point before you can decide enter or re-enter a relationship. Sadness, anger, and feelings will discolor perception. One must approach the relationship with an empty heart (or blank page) ready to start fresh. (others are free to disagree).
100% Dead-On, Dog! I would, however, add:
Originally Posted By: orangedog
Dog thinks you must reach this point before you can decide enter or re-enter or walk away from a relationship.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac