I did call her just now and apologize for the way I have been acting the last few days and told her I didnt want things to be like this between us. She didnt seem to be bothered by it and said she figured if I wanted to talk I would.
She said "not to put this all on you but it didnt have to be like this and that you were the one who made it this way". I told her I didnt want to start the blame game. She said that she still didnt really have any solutions to make both of us happy and I told her that the only one I had she would probably not be comfortable with as it involved talking and spending quality time both as a family and as two friends. She said she needed time to think about it.
With the way she's done me lately that likely translates as "I dont want to make you cry like a little baby (which is really how she characterizes my feelings when I express them) so I'll take a few days before I tell you no". Either that or she has to consult with the OM to see if he's ok with it. Either way the answer will likely be no. But I wont bring it up again...so if she doesnt I'll just assume the answer was no without any conflict.
I'll guess that calling her to apologize somehow wasnt right...but since I was such an ass and actually felt bad rather than good about it, and I probably wont see her again until Saturday due to her teeth extraction Friday, I didnt want this last bad interaction/feeling to sit with her all that time.
