I ask myself if I would want to get to know or be close to someone who wont look at or talk to me? I ask myself if I would want to come back to someone who's ignoring me when a reason I gave for leaving them was that they ignored me/paid me little attention?
Of course my answer to both is "no".
My ex just dropped off our daughter, and from the time she got here to the time she left, I made no eye contact with her and hardly acknowledged anything she said.
I would never have deliberately done that when she and I were together...and yet now I'm becoming the big a$$hole that she says I was.
It was even sadder that when she got up to leave, twice she said bye to our daughter and our daughter just hugged on me and ignored her. I knew after she walked out the door I should have gotten our daughter to tell her by but I sat and said nothign.
And here I am again feeling like crap. This sucks because I feel like I'm going to hurt no matter which way I behave toward my ex.
If I keep this act up I'm essentially holding on to my anger indefinately...and thats going to keep me from fully healing/moving on. Plus...if by some miracle of God she and the OM did ever part ways, why in the heck would she ever want to come back to me? She would not only have hostilty towards me for being so hostile to her all the time, but she would probably believe that I still wouldnt pay her any bit of attention.
The flip side that is essentially the "High Road" is me being nice to her and going with the flow. But at the same time I feel like I'm glossing over my own feelings and sending the message that what she did didnt bother me...that its ok for me to be her doormat.
