I understand my friend. It sounds like your mediation went well. I'm "happy" for you. Not at the situation, but at the closure and, hopefully, peace it will bring you. Hang in there. You are handling this all very well.
And to paraphrase what I just told Serenity:
"Like all of us, I have made many friends on this site. You, gima, are truly my buddy."
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac