Ring On or Ring Off????

[ddstartingover]

I think I understand this. However, I haven't pushed----in a long time. I sent emotional e-mails in response to his recent request that I hire a lawyer for a divorce. I don't think you can describe the last mini conversation I had with him in(October), as pushing, unless face to face conversation is pushing in itself----which it apparently is for him.

His recent e-mail telling me that what he is doing/has done is "right in his mind" makes me just think this is all my problem. I don't know. I still just don't get it. THIS is not the man I grew up with and thought I knew so well.

What I do know is that going through the process of divorce will most definitely make him resent me/be more angry with me and ultimately have more fuel to blame me for all of his problems. I know this, because I will ask for what I deserve. I will protect myself and my future and I see no way to come out of this without him truly hating me. I know that this will be the end, and I really don't know that I can handle it.