I feel like such a fool!!!! I feel like I’m doing all the work. H is defiantly not committed to working on M yet. He just wants to spend some fun time together to see if he can fall back in love with me, I hate this!!!!

He is still talking with OW, and still claims they are just friends, and the kiss they had was not passionate, just a friend kiss. What a bunch of BS.

I don’t know how much more of this I can take. A good friend of his told me that if I show him we can have fun and be happy, he will have no reason to talk to this OW anymore. I’ve been told by several people, including my H about how controlling I am (which is true, I’ve learned that about myself through this whole ordeal). And the friends tell me if I tell H to drop all contact with OW, it will come across as controlling and push my H further away.

According to DB’ing I’m supposed to make me out to be the better choice. However this is so hard, how do I be all upbeat and happy when I can’t trust a word that comes out of his mouth.

I ended up not being able to talk to OWH on Monday, so now I have to wait until next Monday. I hope with him knowing more details that will help my sitch.


Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10