Here's my story..midlife crisis/infidelity

[January girl]

"what is happening right now?". I usually find that the intolerable part of my experience isn't what's happening right now, it's my thoughts about the past/future. If you've been through labour without pain relief, you probably know that you're OK if you just stick with focusing on what's happening in your body at that moment.

These both helped quite a bit.

I had all natural labor with D9 and that was how I got thru it. With S1 I tried that but had to have an emergency C-section which was quite scary. We went thru years and years of infertility in order to have our two wonderful children...sometimes that makes this even harder...BUT I'm not going to think about that today...ANYWAY...

We packed up all the movies/cds and DVDs last night. Well, he packed them and I picked out the ones that were "mine." It just seemed SO crazy dividing our stuff. Seventeen years married, almost 20 years together and it boils down to a bunch of junk in a box....his/mine/ours. He is almost euphoric daily about all this. He's not even sad. I guess I wouldn't be sad either if I could have an apartment where I could screw my lover whenever I wanted. Some days I hate them both. I know that I cannot change other people. My new treadmill will be set up tonight which will be good.