Moving on with my life!

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I think its just small town life and people thinking I really need to know this stuff about exh. My neighbor, who I talk to maybe once a month, sent a text asking if I saw this persons FB. I didn't even reply.

Like I said, I am torn on FB. I really like it for certain reasons. Keeps me feeling a bit connected to the world, my kids, etc. but filtering the possible crap is hard.

Exh has not seen baby since last Friday. He asked to come by yesterday but I said we were busy. Last night he was trying to ask me how wrestling was. Again no response, but he sent over and over..even with a 'hello? Whats going on?". Everytime I would even think about responding I picture those pictures of him and MGF last weekend.

Today going to get some things done with my mom. Gets me out of the house for a bit which is nice. Baby is feeling better and we slept better last night. Amazing how sleep affects your PMA!

I did have a little breakdown yesterday on the phone with my sister. I tried to open the poolcover yesterday to see what pool looked like and the pool cover is malfunctioning! UGGH! I just spent $1000 last summer fixing the stupid thing. With a baby I have to have that thing working properly. Not like I can just leave it open. So my sister called right after this and I just lost it. Felt like nothing was going right, one thing after the other, im tired, stressed, overwhelmed, sick of being home, lonely, wanting time to study, hating exh, etc. She just listened and it felt better to let go for a bit.