Sheesh. Nuts. W apparently contacted her lawyer twice today - once to say, proceed with the court date, and again to say, no, hold off.
I was at the house tonight to watch the kids, and, she's a mess. Hasn't been sleeping. Saying that she's considered checking herself into a hospital. She's completely overwhelmed with the situation, saying she just wants to pull the trigger so that we're out of limbo. She can't function. She's forgetting to brush her teeth in the morning. (I actually know what that feels like...) Forgetting to wash her hair.
Says she doesn't care about what she feels anymore, she just wants to get out of this limbo hell, and if we're meant to be together, explore that after divorce.
She said that she feels so needy, that she can't set boundaries. And I'm still really the only one there for her.
Told her that we don't have to make any decisions while being so emotional, let's just take a break from it, for a day, a week, whatever. Things are fine now, things are going to be fine.
She said later, when she got home from the movie, that things seem clear to her and then she gets around me, and she's not so sure.
Crazy.
I'm kind of reaching the "why should I put up with this" point again. I did tell her, well, then, we need to do the work of coming up with a support agreement, move forward, all that jazz.
I'd say I'm tired of being jerked around, but it's more of the same. I'm actually feeling kind of numb to it.
The kids are commenting that mom is wigging out. I need to take them more.
