Tom, I am in the middle of updating my sitch, I had a major talk with my W tonight. We have not talked like this in years. The honesty was amazing and the fact that I have grown so much, but it took time. This is going to take time, patience is the key. You have the right attitude, one day, one hour, one half hour at a time. Start where you need to and get to the next point and then the next one. You will make it, and you have friends here that care.
I know where you are and I can say "I know what it is to be insane". I was for about 45 days. You need to get to the doctor and get checked out. There is nothing wrong with getting some help from some medication, probably anti anxeity and anti depressants. I just take a small little sleeping pill now but I can say for sure the meds got me through the first 2 months.
The other thing is exercise, it relieves stress and releases the good feeling chemicals in your body. It works better than the meds and it is good for you. JUST DO IT! really. I will check on you in the morning.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
