Ns, I know this is hard for you. I hope you can read the frustration from the others here who are trying to help you with absolutely no avail. I have a R.O. on me, so I can speak from experience. At your present frame of mind and failure to listen to any advice, I predict you will have a R.O. by the end of this month. You are acting as if someone took your marbles and will not give them back. Trust me when I tell you this, you think you got problems, if you don't get yourself together, when she gets a R.O. I don't think you will be able to handle it. STOP!!! Stop with the porn movies in your mind starring your W and OM, you are just punishing yourself and making you pursue even harder. When I read your sich, you make this sound like a competition between you and OM. This is not a situation of whos the strongest or fastest or can throw the ball the farthest. This is an emotional situation that at least for now, you are on the sideline and the coach(W) will not let you play. You must accept that for you to be able to go on. Nothing is worse when you can do nothing(my situation). Don't be foolish or inmature to join me in this exclusive club.
I have never suggested to anyone to cheat, but your self esteem is so low that I think that would give you some help, if another woman could stand to put up with your whinning. I know some of the things I am saying you don't like, but I say it in love because you are surely heading for disaster.Other than praying, there is NOTHING you can do right now.I'll say it again, other than praying, there is NOTHING you can do right now. Man, I know that hurts but stop for a moment and soak that in. When you accept that(it was hard for me also), you will understand and be able to implement the suggestions you have been getting.
Do you want to at least have a shot at saving your M??? Do you??? Then stop what you are currently doing and detach. Because you are so geek up from being rejected, you can't even see that your situation is so bad, at least it wasn't but you just keep pushing. I would take your situation in a heartbeat.
Do yourself, your kid, your family, and your friends here a favor and go dark as much as posiible. Not to get back at your W, but to help you, to stabalize your mind and emotions. Until that is accomplished by you and only you. You have no shot. Is that what you want?? I don't think so. I know its hard. I know its the hardest thing you have ever had to do, but you must get it done.
You feel you are on the losing end, because you have been bad and need to be punished. Maybe that why you are keeping this up, your W punishes you and all of us too.You can stop feeling that way if you will just do whats been suggested.
