You are hitting on exactly what I'm trying to figure out. I'm certain W has some resentment about my career success. It's just that she hasn't expressed any of it until very recently. Music has been our main source of income for the entire 18 years we have been together. W has tried a large number of various hobbies and careers, which I've fully funded and tried to fully support emotionally.
She says that I'm resentful that I've given up a bigger career in music in order to support her, and it pisses her off. I've thought hard about this. I've never said anything like that, and my true feelings have been that becoming a husband and father have saved me. I wouldn't trade my family for anything. In fact, they are what give my music meaning.
She says she is trying to find herself, and she can't do it with me helping her all the time. I think that is a valid point. Still, I have to wonder about her new resentment of my music. I wonder how new it is. Has she been angry about it all these years? Is it jealousy, or just anger at my absences? She has said that she's "raised the kids" while I play music, but I don't think that is fair or true. I've been a dedicated father, and spend countless hours with my kids. Truthfully, I've done a lot more gigs than I've wanted to just to support her bipolar spending sprees. But then I would dedicate the rest of my time to the kids; D17 recently pointed out that is was W that choose not to participate.
It's true, we have not had a traditional family schedule, and that is likely part of the problem. I just wonder how much of this is her rewriting history.
sigh, I do just want to move on.
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