OK dear you helped me last weekend, now we're going to help you. Deep breath, remember?
GIVE IT 24/48 HRS. Saying nothing was good. You're likely to blow your top and this won't help. You may or may not want to say it again - but you must wait until ODP kicks in more and it will because you've come so far.
It must be harder to have the distance now to cool down, I know if my H were back home and in my face I'd be way more tempted to blow up. But you must practice this because it is your new way of life.
Yes it's disrespectful, yes you've already said it's a dealbreaker. He knows that. But you can't bun fight him or the topic will switch to your behavior, not his.
So you did great getting some space and not being too affectionate, and going to bed. Spend time alone, call a friend, ride your horse, write in a journal or on here....do what you can to soothe your own pain.
