Also in the GAL department: I am dealing with my body. I lost 10 lbs in the last month. Ask me my weight loss secret!! Well, it was a combination of pneumonia and the famous LBS weight loss plan (=stop eating due to stress). Not the most healthy way to lose weight obviously. But I'm turning it my advantage to leverage more weight loss in a gradual, healthy way. My stomach seems to have shrunk, so it's easier for me to do portion control and watch what I eat. And for the first time in years, I can cook for myself, which makes it a lot easier (I drove myself crazy cooking a complicated, special diet for H's progressive health condition, and different foods for my children, who wouldn't eat his food). For years I've been slightly overweight while my H has been super-fit. He would never say so, but I believe that was an issue that contributed to his lack of desire for me. It's probably too late for my marriage, but it's not too late to get my body to a place where I feel proud of how I look and feel. I'm already getting compliments on how I'm looking, and it feels good. I've noticed that losing weight really affects how people perceive me, not just how I look. The only problem is that I don't have many clothes that fit well now. Maybe I'll allow myself to buy some inexpensive items.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.