I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Hey Pearl! Thanks for the advice.

My house is early 80's but you almost can't tell now


I noticed that H only suggested dates that go along with what I've been open to in the past. During the week doesn't work at all and he knows that - so he only suggested weekend dates - clearly he's learning on some level.
I chose the very last one he suggested... 2/21 named the time and the public place. Quick and simple - not chit chat. Easy.

I talked to a D lawyer friend of mine. He's suggesting I change a lot of things and wants to discuss me filing first to exercise some of my rights. I'm not sure how I feel about that... We are going to talk more later this week. I'm totally on board with protecting myself and getting as much out of a D as possible for myself. I just don't really want it and filing makes me feel like I'm telling everyone I'm OK with this... Not sure how I feel... Its one thing to do it because its a good legal strategy and quite another to do it because I'm just done with this whole thing. At least I have a few weeks to decide/ mull over my feelings. At least its nice to know that I have more rights than I thought and that I'm pretty much guaranteed to keep my house. L says H couldn't get it away from me if he wanted too... and if he tried my L will make sure H has to pay me for the negative equity Hows that for leverage...

I've been thinking more about dating. I really would like to go on a couple, so that is my GAL focus for the next few weeks.. We will see how it goes - may end up being a disaster!

Belly Dancing class went amazing! I may have found a new hobby! I can't believe how quickly it got me in touch my my body and how it moves. Those sensual sexy movements really make you feel more like a woman - it accentuates everything that's great about being a woman!!!!!! I can't wait to go back!

Well another long day at work and then off to IC tonight - looking forward to that.

T