I was ready to give up on everything and Ill be honest even have had suicidal thoughts just to end the pain.
Your first GAL step is to deal with these thoughts. It's great that you are seeing a C. Don't beat around the bush: discuss these thoughts with your C right away. Talk to your doctor about depression and your suicidal thoughts. You're in for a rough ride in the next little while, and while feeling in pain is normal, suicidal thoughts mean that you need help with managing your moods and thinking. Something you can do yourself is challenging the cognitive distortions that add fuel to the suicidal thoughts.
I would recommend getting the Divorce Remedy book (Divorce Busting is an earlier edition).
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
