I totally agree with the fact that she needs to feel a loss. The problem I've been running into is that she is perfectly fine to let things be the way they are to her. All the changes she said she was going to do, she hasn't done.
It's almost like she's forcing herself to not see the kids, etc. because she made up her mind that it was how she was going to live and will do everything to make that possible. Yet she feels "empowered" when she plays the victim. Crazy.
I think that's why I've been inviting her to things to keep things moving in a positive direction. If not, she wouldn't do anything and in the end the kids would suffer because she doesn't do anything with them. She's never had an objection with me taking them all out somewhere.
I was surprised that she went to my friend's party. Even though it was with the kids, the people were my friends. She even told me it was a big deal for her. I don't know in what way since she didn't elaborate, but I saw it as a positive.
Sometimes I just want to shake her and say "What the hell are you doing?" I mean we get along, she doesn't want to stay away from the kids, etc. It's almost like she chooses to stay miserable because she doesn't feel like she "loves" me. She hasn't even examined what that means. Any thoughts?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
