S19 is not my H's son so he was doing me a favor by keeping him on his insurance. As far as the yard work and stuff H would never (I don't think) help. And he cries he is broke all of the time to our D13, so he wouldn't help pay for anyone to do it either.
Everything that H said was said to D13, H doesn't call or anything for me. He goes through D13 which her C said is NO good. This was just yesterday. But there is nothing I can do about it. I tried time and time again to get him not to get her in the middle of things but he does it anyway.
As far as GAL you are right, the meds won't do it by themselves. I have C today and I am hoping it will help some. Last night I took D13 to swim practice and on the way home I had a terrible panic attack. So when it was time to pick her up I was freaking out. Here the neighbor happened to call to check on me and she offered for her H to go pick up D13. So I let him. I couldn't get myself together to go get her. I have a hard time seeing at night to begin with so it makes the panic attacks worse.
Last week when I worked my second job at night I had a girl that lives close to me follow me home. I can't keep doing that because even though my schedule stays the same hers doesn't. I even had panic attacks with her following me. I am on xanax and take it before I have to go somewhere, but at night I'm so much worse. I have suffered with these attacks for over 20 yrs. but they were NO where near what they are when something bad happens to me in my life.
Like when I was the caretaker of my father before he passed I was a mess then too. And here I go again! I was always use to the fact I could always call H and he would talk to me until I got home but now that is gone. I was dependent as far as my panic attacks go with H.
I don't want to give into this so that's why I'm going to C and have been since H walked out.
